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the moment.

Did I mention how many lashes did his eyes had?
The air around me began to feel warm,
that it makes it hard to not know he's here.
Slowly, my lids lowered,
& all I could focus was all that I was after for.
Very slightly, lightly,
like a featherlike sensation that reached my torpid brain,
I was living in THE moment.
5 seconds? or was it 12?
Like gears of a vehicle, little bits all around.
or rather, like pieces of puzzle scattered everywhere.
My brain had problem rearranging itself,
& my poor heart had to squeeze that breath out of me to let it restart.


I'm speechless.
It wasn't just butterflies in the stomach.
Apparently, the few generations of jumping beans have arrived.
Like cancer, the spreading of this sensation---definitely not pain---was instantaneous.

"Information overload"---if only brain could actually function itself to even register these alphabets.
Too fast, too soon.
It's over.
He doesn't know how captivating he is,
& I've unwittingly became his lab rat.

The confounding part was that I was happy.

The rest that followed or happened didn't matter, because I only live in the present.

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The doll

It's about this new doll I've got recently
Clean and pristine, I wanted it dearly
Whining and looking at it everyday
I tugged mummy and papa daily
Just so that I could lay my hands on that doll.

One day, mummy and papa gave up
They bought it for me.
Elated I was, I hugged the doll everywhere I went
Like a shadow, it never leaves me.

But, like any other toy,
The passion for it would start to wear off
Slowly, bit by bit.
From talking to it everyday,
Having meals with it everyday,
To talking to it once every two days,
And gradually, I no longer bother communicating with it.

So, I tried changing the doll's clothes,
Maybe, perhaps, changing the appearance abit would entice me to play with it more.
But little stirred my interest up.
So I asked myself, is it me that I've lost interest in,
Or is the doll just too old and dirty compared to the clean and pristine state I've gotten it?

Maybe increasing my perspective on this idea
Would probably cut my suffering in this weird longiness for a new doll.
Perhaps all I want is just the clean pristine doll back,
Perhaps...

Well, I guess once we have something,
Taking for granted, just comes easily like it should.
With this doll in my hand,
How I wish is back in the unreachable shelves of the departmental stores,
So that I can go back to the whining
So that I can go cry in my room whenever I can't get that doll I want.
So that I know that doll is love, and the constant reminder of treasuring it.


HAUNTED HOUSE!
JENNIFER AND ME! =D

SOUN HA AND I! =D

berlindaang

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Reflection

I see her.
I hate her.
Who is she?
Where is she from?
Who's that girl in the water?
That same face,
the same smile,
the same actions,
Who is she?
Where is she from?
Who's that girl in the mirror?
That same physique,
the same clothes
the same make-up
the same shoes,
Who is she?
Where is she from?
Who's that girl in the shop's window pane?
I guess J2 life is just taxing. Have loads of assignment to be completed on time. SIGH.
I hope this year is a swift one.
A blink of an eye, it will be like O's.
When I sit in the exam hall, brimming with confidence, with so much hope and dreams and whatever you stake on it to make it to your choice course.
sigh.
berlindaang

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when the rose has lost its meaning

when the rose has lost its theurapatic ability,
when its thorns are just overwhelming,
when the leaves no longer pale in comparison with the rose,
every meaning of the rose is lost

when home has lost its meaning,
when it is no longer is your haven,
when it is just a mere hotel,
when it is, just a place where more emotions just sets in.

when close ones become strangers,
when family starts to be distant,
when you lose yourself to your diary and not to a soul.

when the rose has lost its meaning,
what is, worthy of the name it meant?


berlindaang

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Unblinking Grief

the last cigarettes are smoked, the loaves are sliced,
and lest this be taken for wry sorrow,
drown the spider in wine.

you are much more simply dead:
i am a dish for your ashes,
i am a fist for your vanished air.

the most terrible thing about life
is finding it gone.

by charles bukowski

I just love poems by him.
berlindaang

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Amazing

Isn't it amazing when you have the energy to:

use the com but not for your homework?
play your favourite sport but not for housework?
chat with your friends all day, but not sparing a single time for your family?
go shopping with your friends but not with your mum shopping for groceries?
watch movie with your date but not dramas with your family?

******

I'm beginning to question if computers are better off than humans as a companion.
Computers does not betray, neither can it do any physical harm such as beheading you in your sleep or chase after you with a chopper.

It does 24 hrs shopping with you to the ends of the earth, handles your finances clearly without blemishes, firm and hardy, and the best part it is always there for you.

You do your wide social connecting through your com, and allows you to "travel" to places you've never seen before. What's more, 24/7 entertainment. Just hit the buttons baby.

Where does human stand? I'm not surprised if the news reports someone having a wedding ceremony with his/her laptop. I feel as if we're stepping into an age of cyber, our love ones turning to technology rather than physical contact with humans. We need not have an environment presented like what is shown in A.I movies to experience the effect of cyber age.

sigh


berlindaang

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Guns n' Roses

Bang bang
Hear the guns cry
Screams streams in
Birds fly
The gun silence the scene




That fatal object
Boast pride and age
Guns N' Roses
What a combination





The lady in scarlet
Blended in with the scene
Flowing gown fanning out
Hair cascading down her alabaster white skin





Bang Bang
Hear the guns cry
Screams streams in
Birds fly
The gun silence the scene





She's like a magician
But came roses where bodies lay
Thorns it grew
Hatred it brewed
Roses sweet smelling
Appears only in fairytales


The guns carved life into ground















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OUT CAME DOMOKUN!

hahahahahhahahah!!!!

I'm nuts!
yes!
Was talking to Jaz about cheaper domokun plushies!
my god. I'm so going to get one!











berlindaang
P/s: Britney's Latest Album, Circus is hypnotising!

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Child in paradise

Have you ever thought of heading back to the past
to correct your mistakes
to relieve happy moments
to take back regrets?

Have you ever thought of heading back to the past
to learn to appreciate
to learn to be grateful
to learn to be humble?

Have you ever thought of heading back to the past
to lead a carefree world
to be the baby we once were
to be the intrinsic character of us-innocence?

if only there's a time machine
to screw my life up.
Retouching the past
Perfecting the future.
Faux.



berlindaang

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the Indian Fetish / Horoscope

I'm so hooked onto chori chori (feat Arash) !!!

i must say,
IT'S IMPRESSIVE.
I went over to look for the lyrics ( not that i know hindi ) in search of something like japanese Romanji. So i found it. Totally translated for the pronounciation through english.

So i tried singing along with it.
after the song is over,
whatever i'm saying is tongue tied.
hahaha!

I'm reading my horoscope now,
and this web that i found is somewhat true.
but i know it would be all the vague phrasing here and there.
Still, these are all that are provided,
it's LENGTHY.
so i warn you, if you're at my blog at some ungodly hour, dont read.
'cause you would doze off.

I'm supplying for Capricorn and Libra and Leo.
Considering the fact that i know loads of people within this range.

just type : http://www.astrology-online.com/(your%20horoscope).htm
and it would lead you to your horoscope respectively.


With bursting complexity of the new inspiring year
we welcome this phenomenon with both hands
With fireworks and wishes, it's here
On this very day, is also where it ends.
Spring on life and blossoms
For we hold our breaths
till the next min
of fate arriving towards us.


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So, it isn't fair if everyone gets to do their reviews for 2007 and not letting me join in this too!

2007:
  1. Sucess of Valentine's Day sale!
  2. Physics getting a B4 (finally.)
  3. I've been to Natsu Masturi
  4. Worn a yukata; first in my life.
  5. experiencing the tension of O's
  6. Making the library my 2nd.
  7. Understand peg, tsui fen, and me.
  8. Quarelled with sis's seniors. ( seriously it's not memorable.)
  9. Mixing around with people i've never been close before.
  10. Unable to be straightforward to ________ for the first time.
  11. Yah. Prom.
  12. Xiang Qi craze
  13. Love for cars and photography grows.
  14. Receiving Eagles.
  15. First time receiving facial treatment
  16. found this statement :
    "SEC 4's life is just sad okay.not tragic enough to kill, but sad enough to dump all your spirits." ---- 3rd of June 2007
  17. Completing NWSP, received Comendable award--$30 KinoKuniya Voucher, splitted.
  18. Purchasing Twilight Trillogy
  19. Seeing a Lamborghini
  20. Experience the wierdest of mixed feelings this year.

Overall,

this year's both good and bad.
I'm still blind, cannot win hock chuan in xiang qi.

err...
tolerating spammers on the other hand...

and also enjoying life like i've never had.




*P/s: Dont contact me until night time, today. I've sent my phone for re-service. Yes. it's at Sony Ericsson's Army now.

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pressure i scream, tension it seems

GREED conquered me.

In the dark gloomy night,
wind howl with the cold wind.
I panicked my way down the streets.
It was 1855 that year.
Christmas was nearing, everybody stayed indoors.
I came up to this residence, rapped on the majestic door three times.
the butler opened the door gracefully.
I nodded and entered without hesitating.
there it was.

the Philsopher's stone.

priceless artefact it was.
beliefs said it could transform metals into gold.
i stared in awe.
For i have not witness such rare intriguing; anything like this in the world.
i took it.
i studied it.
i...stole it.

i dont know what i've become.
I was neither an alchemist nor a scientist.
Just a nobody who took the stone out of greed.
For the first time i felt the whole world was in my hands
Money makes the world go round they say.

Avaritia (Greed).
One of the Seven Deadly Sins they named.

To err with humans are just excuses.




Did you commit the same mistake ?
by giving in to sins.

Have you violated the Seven Holy Virtues?






*peg, your pic is in the previous post. with council photos. =)

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