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when my passion is extinguished.

today i am supp'd to be happy that i could put this on my calendar.

PHYSICS

hai.. but today ,this super big enormous, humongous, large, extreme big news and devastation and any adjectives that makes you feel so stupid for the 1st time, hit me so hard, that i was supp'd to be the one to comfort people, but i ended up being comforted by them. my chinese result just wasnt what i wanted it to be. oh well.

i dont know how to put in words, how to describe this feeling i am having now. maybe i should follow what the chinese comprehension suggested. "Lower your expectations and you will have less trouble." i cant believe i am getting like an A2 and below for my chinese, when that's the only subject i could depend on to make my report book much nicer looking.

i have got the lowest in class for my letter writing, although the rest werent high either. Ans that's depressing enough. my paper 2 results werent of my expectations, i think i am somewhere at the bottom. i just feel so stupid. i cant even do well for my exams in school, how to go for O Lvls? I am a chinese; and yet this type of results.... urgh.


The haze is back.

Be it physically or mentally, but it is
definately back.
it's back, blocking my path
choking my lungs
blurring my vision
destroying me slowly.


Physics

Today's paper 1 went well. Paper 2's mind boggling. Well, as if any other science paper doesnt.
Dont wanna harp on how i murdered my brain cells again. I have confirmed that i've lost 3 marks for paper 1.
I JUST WANNA GET A B3 FOR PHYSICS. i dont wanna drop to sub-sciences, i want pure science!!!

My poem of the day.

today's devastating; looking at that tainted paper.
my heart skipped that beat; eyes went blur.
it aint any paper.
when i lost to reality and nightmare occurs.

when i could only be envious,
and not be envied.
when i could only cry,
but not experiencing the joy everyone is having.
when i could only be angry,
when everyone is happy.

To work with aim
To aim with determination
To determine with will
To will with faith
To faith with believe
do you ever think this would end?

i've got nothing to say about my fruit of labour
it's dry; sour
not even close to ripe; or so i guess
i look at the other side.
they have got green pastures.
they have got fruits; sweet tasting juicy fruits
they have got scars or so i see.
but they have got radiant look on their faces
"Look, we've worked hard;"
"Look, this is what we deserved."

and look.
i am a person without scars in peoples' eyes
i am a person without sweat blood and tears.
i am a person that deserves all these,
cause i reap what i sow
cause i've got no one to blame but me.


bero~
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