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You're about to view something that maybe terribly opinionated, about 634 cats are killed in the making of this blog, and 356 hours of PI has been done to credit this blog The insanity level and mundane level is never on par, there would be paramedics of course, if you have a housephone/hp/whichever way you feel it's most comfortable to save your own life. So eat your bibimbap while reading this ingenious blog of mine, it probably makes your stay more bearable.
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it sucks.

It just sucks to be me.

Hey, you might find that, that (the above line) is the world's lousiest opening.
Think about it. harder. It's true.

I have all the bad things you can ever think of.
Physical appearance, I need not elucidate more.
I'm not smart either.
I dont have a great figure.
I dont have a demure character. In fact, I'm freaking loud for a girl.

But you know what?
I see my weakness.
And I get tired of people reiterating my weakness to me.
You know, strengths don't really count, if people don't praise you willingly, or at least commented or told you before.

I'm lucky I've girlfriends beside me saying how nice I am, and appreciating stuffs I do for them.
I guess, that's the one part you could envy me.

What got me into writing this sub-emo post was,
while I'm glad my sis got good score for O's, and entered the jc of her choice,
I'm sick of people comparing me to her.
There's so much I want to rant about,
from pri 1 all the way till now. How relatives and friends judge me.

But I guess I'll spare you all the agony.

Even with my sis around, she did, very subtly avoid such topics, and say how I am the one motivating her instead, and that she doing well in life is a-should-be.
I somehow... envy her.
I'm not saying she should be lousier than me, or that life is sucky for me, and whatnot.


Ijustcan'tstandpeoplecominguptomeandsay/askwhyamIlousierthanher.
hey.
If I could answer that, and have the remedy,
would I not rectify it?
WOULD I NOT?
you tell me.
you, the person so bored and everything reading this blog of mine, tell me, would I not rectify it?

Alright.
so yes people, y'all are smartasses.
I don't deny, and I'm happy for people scoring better than me. OI. I MEAN IT! Not being a sour grape here.
I'm happy when my girlfriends around me score after putting in so much effort,
I'm happy when others got what they sow.


so yes, I'm not as capable as my sister in terms of studies.
mind looking at my other virtues/capabilities/character?
Is studies all that judges a person's EQ and IQ?
Is it?





P/s: It's not that I can't take it. (as in, people asking me the question) Just think about it. For 16 years of my freaking life, starting from streaming in P4. You go and sit in your comfy chair and try to be me for a min. Think about how many times do I have to ans my friends, why am I not as competent as my sis. WHY. WHY HUH? WHY BERLINDA, WHY?

to beverley: OI. WOMAN. If you're reading this post, I'M STILL PROUD OF YOU! and I'll not stop telling people how great you are! =D sigh. I'm just frustrated. You understand.




I'm fed up.
berlindaang.

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